Sunday, August 26, 2012

..Well, It's that time again..

School is starting tomorrow. Don't even get me started on how I feel about it. I don't know why I can't shake these feelings that come every time I start school after even a somewhat short break. 

-I get anxiety and knots in my stomach.
-I get angry for not being more proactive during the break.
-I get sad and almost teary-eyed, and only when my husband finally falls asleep the few nights before the first day, do I begin crying.
-My happy, corky personality falls by the wayside as a weight falls on my shoulders labeled "The First Day of School."

Like I said I just cannot shake these feelings. 

School starting is such a scary thing for me. It always has been I guess. Even though I know the classes that I am signed up for, I feel like I have no idea what lies ahead of me. 

Don't get me wrong. I am completely and utterly grateful to be going to college and getting a degree in something that I absolutely love. I am so lucky to have the choice to study my passion and develop my talents. 

Andrew has tried to talk me out of these dark cloudy spells when he can see them coming on. He is going to help me be more positive, starting now, for this entire new semester. Sure there are going to be assignments and tests and projects that push me to the edge but the bad that comes along with going to school can never fully out-weigh the good.

So here's to starting school again after a great Summer of hard work and lots of fun. I'm going to dive right into my studies and projects, immersing myself fully and strive to keep my chin up the entire time!

1 comment:

  1. I'm so proud of you! You can do it Laura! School is so nerve-racking and I'm in the same boat. Good blessings! I hope you can see the end in sight soon!